sorry everyone, I think I am going to be emo this few days or months or years. I only write what I did every day in this post.=(
22 dec 09, keep trying million apologize to him, but I failed. 好失望，好后悔，好堕落。tried to forget him but I really cannot. keep looking at the msgs he send to me before, and I cried so pain so pain. 冬至不快乐。I was trying to delete the msg but I cant to that, because those msg is the most beautiful things in my life. "hand shake" when i received his msg because from now on,his msg really can kill me to death. heart already break into pieces but nobody cares. walk out to park alone after scolded by mummy because i cried so much.( i said because my results damn bad). I wish he can give me a chance but seems the chance is so mere. Walking down the road, I saw one couple, holding hand, walk happily, talking from sky to earth, one ice-cream two person share, when the wind blows, the guy helps his girl to tidy up her hair..sigh, it makes me think about so many things that I done with him, so many till I don't know how to describe. =( I would never have this thing again ='( *cried*
23 dec 09, cried in the morning when I heard "already gone". Mummy asked why my eyes so "肿" and I said i sleep too much. what the lovely god! okay, I hope to receive his msg but he didn't send to me. I send one morning msg to him and he only reply me once. "happy actually" then afternoon, he keep don't want to msg me either." disappointed". Sick at night but nobody knows.=( .. Oh, I think my brain got problem already because I keep heard some msg tone but actually there is nothing there.Haaaaaaaiz.=( was about to cry already=(
24 dec09,As same as before, I hope to see his msg every morning because those msg really make my day, but I still failed to get it.=( I write a lot of msgs but every msg I am not dare to send to him anymore. I only keep it in my draft,thinking of calling him but my hand shake to dial his number. sigh.=( I tried not to disturb him today because Mike's mom birthday is tomorrow, He should be happy and not annoy by my problem. happy birthday auntie.
