Monday, March 11, 2013

My mind is jammed.

I...I...got a bit irrational fear of doing charity now..Oh no.

Yep, I have been joining charities quite often, ranging from orphanage, recycling centre and as well as giving cares to the old folks...etc etc...
*This is canon camera lorh ,nice isn't it? Forget about the blurring part, is not Canon. Hahaha*

*you can also spot me running around with the vest at Penang Hill one!not RELA* hahahaha!

Woah, I feel like an angel! No mie? hahaha.

Okay lar, now my problems arise.

The old folks home that I have visited this few weeks really makes me feel so demotivating lor. Few questions come to my mind:
1) Why getting old?
2) Why getting old with sickness?
3) What else can old folks do?
4) Are they happy living long?
5) What is the purpose of living now? Waiting for death?
6) What, where why and who?

I see them struggling, knowing that they must not give up to battle against their sickness/faith, but honestly, what is the point of "not giving up"? Sigh. Come please give me some positive sayings and motivations.

Here are some of my conversations:
Me: "Uncle, don't give up. We need to accept it with open heart, and try to make it better each day okay?"
Uncle: "Ya......"

Me: "Aunty, is okay. Everyone has their own problem. There is problem if there is without problem!hahaha!"
Aunty:"Ya....."

Me:"Uncle, don't worry. Tell me what you need and we'll try to give it  for you next week ok!"
Uncle:"Ya...."

See...see...see...

I have nothing to say.

And, I am counting,

50 years from now.

Uh-oh.